Breaking Point by Himring
Fanwork Notes
Laws and Customs challenge prompt:
"'Would you then betray the King?' said Elendil. ‘For you know well the charge that they make against us, that we are traitors and spies, and that until this day it has been false.'"
~ The Silmarillion, "Akallabêth"
(more on this in the end notes)
Fanwork Information
Summary: Amandil is pushed by developments into rejecting his loyalty to Ar-Pharazon. (drabble)
Major Characters: Amandil Major Relationships: Genre: Fixed-Length Ficlet Challenges: Laws and Customs Rating: Teens Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn |
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Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 100 |
Posted on 5 July 2020 | Updated on 5 July 2020 |
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Chapter 1
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He walked away, silent, head held high, but felt himself deeply shaken. When he reached the safety of his chamber, he locked the door, fell to his knees and began retching.
When he rose, he knew he had left Aphanuzîr dead on the floor and could only wear that name as a mask, ever again. He had been both, the King’s friend and Faithful, however uneasily, but from this day on he was Amandil only.
I cannot follow you, Ar-Pharazon.
There was only one loyalty, he had discovered, from which no one could be absolved in heart for any cause.
Chapter End Notes
The context from which the prompt is taken continues:
'If I thought that Manwë needed such a messenger,' said Amandil, 'I would betray the King. For there is but one loyalty from which no man can be absolved in heart for any cause.'
That could be read rather straightforwardly as saying that Amandil's loyalty is to Manwë, but on re-reading it, it seemed to go deeper than that. So here is Amandil reaching that conclusion, earlier. (The substitution of "one" for "man" is deliberate.)
Aphanuzîr is Amandil's Numenorean name (i.e. in Adunaic).
100 words in MS Word.
(1) Comment by Lferion for Breaking Point [Ch 1]
This only gets more effective on re-reading.
Re: (1) Comment by Lferion for Breaking Point [Ch 1]
Thank you!
I'm really pleased to hear that it stands up to re-reading!
(2) Comment by Lyra for Breaking Point [Ch 1]
Amandil's physical reaction and sense of having killed a part of himself really bring across how painful conflicting loyalties can be. I really feel for him.
Re: (2) Comment by Lyra for Breaking Point [Ch 1]
Thank you!
I get the impression that, for Amandil and his family, their sense of identity was bound up with this loyalty, so forsaking it would have been very painful.
Of course, it was partly reading about your take on earlier generations of the family at Andunie and reflecting on it that has influenced me here!