Then Eru Spoke by Taylor17387

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In the beginning

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In the beginning

At first everything was dark. Reduced to his minimum expression, stripped of all his power and visible shape, naked, no, more than naked, faded, Melkor trembled in the middle of the void without light or substance.
Then Eru spoke:

-Welcome back, Melkor.

The spirit of the Ainu shuddered, and turned even smaller upon hearing the voice of the Maker echoing through the nothingness.

-Everything is too dark. I can’t see. -muttered the rebellious Vala.

-Of course it's dark. The world has disappeared. You made it disappear, don’t you remember, Melkor?

-I can’t see you either.

-That cannot be. Because I am everywhere. -there was a movement around the trembling Ainu, as a cosmic ripple, very close and very distant at the same time. And Melkor felt the presence of Eru enveloping him.

-Why am I alone? Where are my siblings the Valar?

-They will arrive in a moment. Or maybe they already arrived countless centuries ago. Time has disappeared too, so it's hard to know.

Melkor sighed afflicted.

-After all, I failed and was defeated. You were right all along: no theme may be played that had not its uttermost source in you. I admit that you have won, Eru.

-How is it, Melkor, the Mighty Arising, admitting defeat and accepting things as they are, once and for all? -the laughter of Eru vibrated through the Vala with power, but also with warmth.- If I have managed to make you come to your senses at least, then I can say that none of this has been in vain. Even when the whole existence had to be destroyed to achieve it.

-At least it was fun while it lasted.

-Well Melkor, that is what matters, isn’t it?

The Vala was still trying to search for something in the blackness, but there was still nothing to see. A terrible cold run suddenly through the core of his diminished spirit, and he regretted his loneliness, and he missed matter, and hoped that he had "something", anything, to cover him.

-Could I ask you a question? -whispered Melkor timidly, trying to embrace himself against the cold, even without arms.

-Of course, Melkor.

-Why have you always hated me so much?

Eru laughed, not with a malicious laughter, but with one full of kind paternalism.

-But Melkor! How could I hate you, if you are my son, if you are a part of me? I have always loved you, as much as your siblings. Maybe a little more in fact. But rebellious children like to think that their parents hate them, in order to justify their rebellion.

And as he said this, a part of Eru stroked the Ainu.
If Melkor had had a body then, he would have defined it as a caress on the cheek. He felt comforted, but still so many uncertainties and doubts assailed him, that he didn’t know where to start.

-I’m afraid, Eru. What will happen now?

-Now? Nothing, Melkor. Now everything starts again. Again from the beginning, do you remember?

-From the beginning? How is it from the beginning? -disbelief shook Melkor from up to down, like lightning.- And what ... What happens with the Second Music, what happens with the restoration of Arda?

-There is not a Second Music, Melkor. There is only one music, which is the first and the last at the same time, and that repeats itself always the same but always different. Arda will be born just as it was, and all the events displayed on it, both good and bad, both joyous and sad, will be played once more. I have seen the same act unfolding in the theater of the world countless times, and I never get tired of it, because every time I find new nuances, new gestures, new details in the drama and in the actors. In fact, you and I have had this same conversation before. And still I feel moved by your naivety.

Eru continued stroking him, but now Melkor felt more helpless and more frightened than ever.

-Then ... Then all our struggles, all our miseries, all our broken dreams, have been nothing more than a spectacle and an entertainment for you?

-That’s one way to look at it, yes.

-And doesn’t it seem cruel to you?

-“Cruel” is a word invented by men. I wouldn’t have imagined you using it, Melkor.

-One day you’ll get tired of the drama of Arda. And what will happen then?

-It’s possible that I get tired, I don’t deny it. But since my patience is infinite, I don’t think that will happen in a short span of time.

 Melkor's voice broke, and he wanted to cry:

-Why did you say that there was a Second Music, why did you lie to us?

-Because you needed that there was a Second Music. Because you, the Valar, and the Elves, and especially the men, need to believe that the world has a purpose, a destiny, a closure to put an end to your suffering, and to give it meaning, and to redeem you. You need to believe that someday Arda will be reborn and that everything will be perfect then, to not despair. The concept of the infinite circle is obnoxious for you, it would be more than your heart could bear. Men cannot understand this, because upon observing their own imperfection, they are unable to understand that the world does not need a rebirth, because it was perfect from the beginning, and always has been, as it was, without changing anything. Oh, Melkor! I thought that precisely you, that have loved Arda Marred so much, would understand this better than anyone.

At that moment Melkor start crying, disconsolate. He felt too weak, too small, and it was too cold, and he kept shivering despite the embrace of Eru.

-You mean ... you mean that I am doomed to repeat the same mistakes over and over? That I have to rebel again, and become the Black Enemy, and all for nothing, just to fail hopelessly?

-Would you have wanted something else? What did you expect?

-I do not know ... -murmured the rebellious Vala among sobs.- Maybe I expected a conclusion, a forgiveness, a revelation that enlightened me, or just disappearing altogether and putting an end to my existence.

-But Melkor, you will also build your kingdom again, and gather your servants, and wear the Silmarils on your head, and fight a thousand battles with your lieutenant. Do you remember him? Do you remember all that glory? You surely want to have all that again, don’t you? -Melkor tried to calm down and he stopped crying, assenting in his thoughts, and letting Eru embrace him closer.- Deep inside you're still a child. Now come here, my son, come back to your source, come back with your father. Soon you will have forgotten all of this, and then you will rest for whole ages. Or for a single moment, it’s hard to know. Come here and rest. And then we will start again.

Melkor felt the presence and voice of Eru filling everything, circling him and merging with his spirit in the most perfect and most beautiful embrace. The void wasn’t empty anymore, and his heart was pervaded by indescribable love and joy. Wrapped in this feeling of warmth, he abandoned himself to the embrace, and the last fragments of his being vanished and joined his Maker, in the middle of a shiver of ineffable bliss.

In the beginning there was Eru, the One, who in Arda is called Ilúvatar; and he made first the Ainur, the Holy Ones, that were the offspring of his thought, and they were with him before aught else was made.