The Seeing by Levade

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Summary:

Erestor has an unsettling encounter with Elwing not long after the fall of Doriath.

Major Characters: Elwing, Erestor

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Genre: Drama

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Rating: General

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Chapters: 1 Word Count: 790
Posted on 9 June 2013 Updated on 9 June 2013

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Chapter 1

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"When falls on man the anger of the gods, first from his mind they banish understanding."
Lycurgus

"Whom the Gods would destroy they first make mad."
Henry Wadsworth

 

"You see them as well."

"See what?" Erestor tried to ignore the chill he felt as the young girl sat on the rock next to him, curling her legs up to her chest and wrapping her arms around them. She rested her chin on her knees and stared silently at the sea.

The most fey elf he had ever met, blood mingled with that of men and maiar, baptised by tragedy and loss before even reaching adulthood, Elwing was not a comfortable companion. She saw more than most, dark eyes haunted with secrets and sorrow, often staring at someone until they walked away.

"Them."

Hardly in the mood for a cryptic conversation, Erestor shifted to pull his hair back, remembered and shoved it behind his ears instead.

It drew her attention. "You did that for someone." Her gaze was on the ragged ends of his hair, the uneven lengths that exposed neck on one side and ear on the other. Erestor had not been entirely sane at that point. "The Teler...Falathrim, do that. It's a sign of mourning."

"Yes." He did not want to explain. Did not want to be heaped in with the scores of Cirdan's men and women, the silver-haired gentle elves who sang the saddest laments Erestor had ever heard, laments that called dolphins to the shore to comfort them. Even the gulls stopped their cries for the songs.

The sea had not forgotten the pleas of those in Alqualonde, the pleas of those who had stayed behind, and it loved them.

It was not so kind to the Noldor who had shed innocent blood, and burned the singer's ships. Bodies of those desperate enough to brave the waves for a sight of Aman were still washing up on the shores.

But there were bodies behind them as well. In the forests of Doriath. In the mountains of Gondolin. Bloodied trails of refugees still streaming in from kingdoms Erestor had never even heard of, speaking languages he had only read in the books of his father's library.

Gone. All of it. Gone.

"They are real, you know." Black hair fell in her face, tangled and wet, she had probably been in the sea already, and she shivered once. "Real, just not yet."

Erestor stared as she started rocking, her voice falling in a sing-song tone.

"Real, real, they sail to war. Far, far, from distant shore. See the sails, see the glow, in the depths, far below. See the stars, watch them fall, look for sails, and hear our wails."

It chilled him, that voice. It was not a child's voice, not the sweet, if soft, voice she spoke with normally. Maiar. Her great-grandmother had been...was ...a Maiar. Did the blood, the blood never meant to mingle with that of elves, cause this madness?

Elwing looked at him, gaze travelling over the hacked hair, the pale face, too thin, the eyes, not as black as her own, but dark. "You can see them, if you look." She pointed, arm so thin Erestor could see the bone. "There. See?"

No. He did not see. Erestor saw waves, white-tipped, crashing to the shore as if reaching for the elves sitting on the rocks; reaching to drag them down to the sea for the sins of their ancestors.

His father. His mother. Elwing was Sindar. She had no wrongs to address with the sea. Erestor was the one with Exile blood. Blood that carried the Doom, the taint of rebellion.

The taint.

Voices raised in a new song, the wind wailing to add to the lament. Erestor listened and slowly looked up, looked to the sea.

The voices were coming from the sea.

"Yes."

He turned his head, meeting that dark, haunted gaze. "You hear them. They are coming, Erestor."

She rose, little more than bones and dark eyes, black hair and a dirty, ragged dress that fluttered in the wind. A smile tipped her lips. "Soon."

Erestor watched her leap down the rock, land lightly and wander farther up the coast. No one would bother her. Most of the elves not of Dior's former kingdom were scared of her.

Who was coming? There were only waves. Waves and more waves, and clouds as far as he could see. Somewhere to the west he was told the Blessed Realm hid from those who so desperately wanted to see their homeland. Was that what Elwing saw?

"Erestor!"

He rose and shook the sand from his cloak before leaping down and raising a hand in acknowledgment, but took one last look back.

Something was coming.


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Oh, I like that! It is perfectly lovely, right on the edge of being a horror fic. I really like how strange and mad Elwing seems. This is the kindest portrayal I would be able to give him. She has always been very hard for me to characterize.

I love the description of the Teleri also. Beautiful language there.

<i>Did not want to be heaped in with the scores of Cirdan's men and women, the silver-haired gentle elves who sang the saddest laments Erestor had ever heard, laments that called dolphins to the shore to comfort them. Even the gulls stopped their cries for the songs.</i>

Cutting his hair in mourning--he would share that practice with so many cultures throughout our real world history right up through the present day.

So much lovely detail in this story.

Hi Oshun,

Yes, I seem to love going to the creepy side of Tolkien which is odd since I can't stand gory movies.  I do love suspense.  

I was trying to understand Elwing, and why she would do what she did.  In some ways I do think she was a pawn of the Valar and not quite sane, but I dont' have any canon truth for that!  

I loved the Teler ever since I read that they sat at the edge of the sea and just listened.  I understand that completely!  A lot of cultures do shear hair in mourning.  It makes me wonder what people in the future will make of our shaving our heads to show our empathy for a loved one going through chemo.  

Thank you so much for your review!  :)  I really appreciate it.  

Erestor has an unsettling encounter - and so do we all. Lordie! I read this last night when it was too late to manage a sensible comment and I haven't needed to read back today because it's stayed with me.

Your Elwing with her foreknowing is perfect, a flawed, damaged, fey little creature, too frail to carry so much power within, and your Erestor has so much past to him (does that make sense?) that he feels complete, multi layered. I want to know what happened to him before this, but not knowing doesn't spoil the impact of his here-and-now.  The stark, grey atmosphere is wonderful, the images so strong that I can see the thin child, Erestor's ragged hair, and smell the sea.

This especially I loved: *Did not want to be heaped in with the scores of Cirdan's men and women, the silver-haired gentle elves who sang the saddest laments Erestor had ever heard, laments that called dolphins to the shore to comfort them. Even the gulls stopped their cries for the songs.*

Hi Kei,

Erestor, this one, has a lot going on behind him.  I'd love to get back to him some day and try to do his story justice.  Elwing.  I have always felt kind of bad for her - the child her at least.  To me you have to go back to her past to explain what she did in the future.  Otherwise it just doesn't seem like something a sane elf would do (which is what lead me to this idea).  

The sea elves will always have a soft spot in my heart.  :)  How could I not love elves that love the sea?

Thank you so much for you review!  Insert happy dance here :D

Hi Himring,

I think a lot of Tolkien's elves, for me, come off as fey.  Especially in The Silmarillion.  They feel so deeply and it can drive them to do things you'd think no "sane" elf would do (Fingolfin attacking Morgoth comes to mind).  Elwing is one of those elves I just want to get in her head and find out why she did what she did.  It's so incomprehensible in ways.  Then I thought about what she went through, and this came to me.  

Long winded way to say, thank you so much! :)  

Levade, this is an extraordinarily beautiful and haunting ficlet, and I mean, haunting (in a very good way).  I thoroughly appreciate the way you've shown Elwing with that blood of the Other, noticeable to Erestor, and disturbing to him.  You've layered the characters very effectively - Elwing's strangeness, Erestor's guilt.  And what does see she?

To me, this is the best kind of horror story, something that is there, but that one does not quite see, that might be real, as Elwing says, or perhaps the imaginings of a burdened mind (Erestor).  And all throughout, your prose is poetic.

Very glad to see that you're posting stories here again! 

Hi Pande,

Thank you!  I think the image of this story was so strong in my mind it almost wrote itself.  Elwing has always seemed absolutely otherworldly to me, and I wish her brothers had survived so we could see if it was just her or the whole family.  I can't imagine Arvernion was the happiest of places at first, with refugees streaming in from at least two ruined realms and maybe that played on her mind too.

I'm so happy this worked for you!  I always love to hear that.  I never set out to write horror, and I can't stand the gory stuff, but my brain just tends to lean a bit towards the macabre I suppose?  The what ifs and whys.  

Thank you again.  I never did reply to that wonderful review you left for Forlorn (I was utterly blown away and intimidated by it), but thank you for that as well.  You bring a realism and honesty mixed with possibility in your stories that urges me to get back to the computer to explore my own ideas.  So thank you for the encouragement as well.  I really appreciate it!