Helevorn: Consider Water by Himring

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Summary:

Noldorin prince attempts meditation technique.

Obviously not for purists, although I'm sure the Noldor were capable of coming up with such things without Buddhist influence.

Mature Themes: meditation can be a somewhat hazardous business.

Major Characters: Caranthir, Maedhros

Major Relationships:

Genre: General

Challenges:

Rating: Teens

Warnings: Mature Themes

This fanwork belongs to the series

Chapters: 1 Word Count: 405
Posted on 6 November 2010 Updated on 6 November 2010

This fanwork is complete.

Chapter 1

In this story arc, the reason for Caranthir's volatile temper is that he is a stronger telepath and empath than is necessarily good for him. This is originally a Felak-verse concept, of course. My version of Caranthir tends to cope less well than Dawn's does, though.

Read Chapter 1

 

 

The surface of the lake is smooth as black glass, its depths opaque. Almost, you could believe you might be able to walk straight across, dry-shod.

Consider water.

Maedhros sits on a boulder by the shore of the lake. He watches the way the light of the sun, gleaming from above the easternmost slopes of Mount Rerir, seems to bounce off the water’s surface like a white shadow.  Maedhros remembers how the rain stung and the wind howled on the slopes above Angband. He remembers a fleet of charred hulks drifting in the shallows and the creaking moan of wood as a leaning mast gave way completely and tipped the wreck over.  He remembers enormous waves crashing onto the decks of stolen ships, deafening and half drowning him and sweeping friends into Uinen’s vengeful embrace. He remembers a trickle of blood that went on dripping from the side of the quay into the harbour basin at Alqualonde when the killing was done.

Consider water.

The surface of the lake is still and smooth. Where the bushes overhang the water, each leaf and twig is mirrored in exquisite detail, hawthorn, willow and sloe. On the opposite shore, where the newly-founded Noldorin settlement is, all seems quiet and peaceful, too. Life surely goes on there as usual with its accompanying sounds: dogs barking, geese hissing, children shouting, the clatter of crockery. But here on this side there is nobody but Maedhros and all is silent.  He remembers tears rolling down his father’s cheeks when he learned the news of his grandfather’s death, and how, even as he wept, his face hardened into hate.

Consider water.

A shadow interposes itself between Maedhros and the lake’s surface. He realizes that hours have passed; it is afternoon. He tilts back his head. Caranthir stands before him. His face is flushed. He is frowning and chewing his lower lip.

‘I have reflected on the matter’, Caranthir says after a moment, with unaccustomed politeness. ‘And I have decided I would prefer it if, the next time you come to visit me, you did not stop first and try to calm your thoughts.’

Maedhros regards him rather ruefully. He gets up, dusts himself off and shakes out his cloak. Then he casts a final look across the lake. The white shadow cast by the sunlight on its surface has turned golden.

He clears his throat. ‘It is’, he remarks, ‘very beautiful.’


Chapter End Notes

Helevorn is the name of the lake and translates as "black glass". It lay at the foot of Mount Rerir near the end of the Ered Lindon and Caranthir founded his main settlement on its shores when he took up the rule of Thargelion.


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Caranthir has been having quite a tough day. He's been forced to remember all those things he doesn't want to be thinking of right along with Maedhros, for hours. He's feeling all sorts of things, including concern for Maedhros. Since his usual bad temper is a form of self-defence, you could say his defences have broken down at this point...

Thank you very much for reading and commenting!

Oh, poor Carnister,  the world is really so overwhelming as it is, without having to experience others emotions as his own as well... I really catch a glimpse of his younger self here,  and empathise. I guess he's lived long enough by now to realise its not always his feelings he's experiencing, but still, it's a major achievement to be able to tell his brother that he's had enough from him.

And of course, Maedhros, as ever, wrestling with his past and his part in it, I can't help but want to envelop him in love...

 Another interesting and unique perspective.

Thank you very much!

I've written a snippet of a conversation between these two, elsewhere (only posted under lock on Dreamwidth so far), which also tries to explore their difficulties, post-torture: Carnistir perceives how much Maedhros is still suffering more clearly than anyone else, but he can't really help, because just being so close to all that without losing his own mind takes up most of his strength.

Not strictly canonical, of course, but originally inspired by Dawn's Felakverse!