Rolling in the Deep by Rhapsody

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Fanwork Notes

A piece written for Back to Middle Earth Month 2011, untouched by a beta. Written for Day 5: Menegroth

Write a story or poem or create artwork that will illustrate the consequences of isolation. 

 

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Fanwork Information

Summary:

On board of a swan ship, Celegorm is isolated from his brothers and father. As he deals with the aftermath of his first battle as a man changed, his fate is sealed.

Major Characters: Celegorm

Major Relationships:

Artwork Type: No artwork type listed

Genre: Drama, Fixed-Length Ficlet

Challenges: B2MeM 2011

Rating: Teens

Warnings: Mature Themes

This fanwork belongs to the series

Chapters: 1 Word Count: 423
Posted on 12 November 2012 Updated on 12 November 2012

This fanwork is complete.

Rolling in the Deep

Therefore it came into the hearts of Fëanor and his sons to seize all the ships and depart suddenly; for they had retained the mastery of the fleet since the battle of the Haven, and it was manned only by those who had fought there and were bound to Fëanor. And as though it came at his call, there sprang up a wind from the north-west, and Fëanor slipped away secretly with all whom he deemed true to him, and went aboard, and put out to sea, and left Fingolfin in Araman.

The Silmarillion: Chapter 9 Of the Flight of the Noldor

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There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

All he wanted was the quiet: no sounds, no smell of blood, no the feel of a blade cutting his flesh.  With a snarl he had let everyone know that he wanted to be alone and they let him be. Here in this isolated spot on board of the swan ship he wondered if he should be alone as his skin started to itch.

The bandage around his hands and arms could not hide the smell of crusted blood,  the now quiet waves could not drive away the screams of agony in his ears. He felt so tired, so weary and fever-ridden, and the sea seemed to call out to him as if it would take away all that violated his senses and put out this fire that still raged on inside him.

He knew, this could not go on, even the slightest thought of that massacre felt as if he would balance on the fragile cord that was his sanity, he could either jump or cut ties with his guilt, to tuck it away as if he did not kill so many during the insane battle.

He could silence it or himself by throwing himself into the sea: to roll into the deep, joining his body with the tears spilled and those fallen.

Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your sheet bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,

Yet he knew, oh he knew that he was needed: his father, his brothers and his people who he had dragged into this all: Foresworn to the everlasting darkness if he would cower. If he could show that he had pulled himself together, to simply tell himself that this never happened, to tuck away this dark memory into the corner of his mind. To be honest: what would the alternative achieve? There was no turning back: he would not surrender himself that easily. What leader could he be if he washed ashore lifeless? If it all took was to bury this, to not speak or mention; to not look back and only think of tomorrow, he would gladly take it. It was time: time to move on. To heal and forget, to claim what was rightfully theirs.

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark...


Chapter End Notes

Rolling in the Deep is a song by Adele that fully inspired this piece. The lines in italics are the starting lines of her song.


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It was like the old days to see you on the Most Recent list again. :) This is ... I hesitate to say lovely, given the subject matter, but very poignantly written, a glimpse into the turmoil that must have been those first hours after the kinslaying. Tyelko finding his resolve is intriguing in light of his later deeds and the fact that he is depicted as one of the least repentant of the brothers; one wonders if this was why?

This was probably the strongest image for me:

What leader could he be if he washed ashore lifeless?

A glimpse of what might have been; I wonder if he'd be remembered as the better leader if he had.

Ah yes, those days when there was more time to spend time on our creativeness. :) I have quite some B2MEM material that never made it to public so far, but to appease this muse I decided to at least share this one... some might follow. Thank you for this lovely review, it made me smile all day (and still!).

This muse, Tyelko, is one character filled with conflict for me. A hunter before the fall of the Noldor turned rogue because of some oath. I cannot help but to think that so much potential was destroyed by all this, that he could have turned out different, to shine in a different light. A leader needs to be decisive, must dare to come to difficult resolutions in dire situation and be pro-active (he is so often potrayed as being evil, as if that was his sole motive). I think he of all seven would see the mercy in a swift kill, that one needs to leave things behind in order to survive... So would he be remembered, I think he would if he was given that fair chance to shine. After all his father saw the potential, but once Fëanor was gone he was forced to only follow. All in my humble opinion. I must write him more often I think.