The Embalmer's Apprentice by Lyra

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Fanwork Notes

Contains references to corporal and capital punishment, a rather medieval law code and colonialist attitudes that may be upsetting to some readers.

Many thanks to Elleth and Dawn for their proof- and betareading patience on the first chapters! I also owe a huge debt of gratitude to Himring, Whitewave and Thai for their unflagging loyalty and encouragement.

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Fanwork Information

Summary:

Faced with the choice between execution or working on the preservation of dead people, young Azruhâr finds himself drawn into an increasingly political struggle between faith and power, tradition and new ideas - and a journey beyond his wildest fears and dreams.

Major Characters: Original Character(s), Herucalmo, Tar-Ancalimon, Tar-Telemmaitë

Major Relationships:

Artwork Type: No artwork type listed

Genre: Drama

Challenges: Akallabêth in August, Arda Underground, Middle-earth Olympics

Rating: Adult

Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings, Expletive Language, In-Universe Classism, In-Universe Racism/Ethnocentrism, Mature Themes, Sexual Content (Mild), Torture, Violence (Moderate)

Chapters: 69 Word Count: 446, 654
Posted on 4 February 2010 Updated on 4 March 2024

This fanwork is a work in progress.

Table of Contents

Well, look who wrote a new chapter after almost three years! So, off to Andúnië!

Matters of great importance are being discussed, people are playing in the sand, and Andúnië continues to be highly idealised. Somewhere has to be.

Azruhâr has impressed the right people; time to pick a fight with the wrong people. Violence warning applies.

Azruhâr does some heavy thinking, and has to appear at the palace again. Amraphel covers the research.

Things progress uncomfortably, and Azruhâr's good deed has unexpected consequences.

Azruhâr enlarges his household, has some awkward conversations, meets the executioner and the in-laws.

Another happy Andúnië chapter.

There is a lot of crying in this chapter, some of it justified. -- Warning for the death of a supporting character.

Warning for some violence, and the death of a major supporting character.

Aaand we have a new King.

Story warnings apply to the second half of this chapter. Not a happy one, I'm afraid.

It's not getting better. >_>

Torture warning applies.

Trial time!

Warnings for the aftermath of the torment and vaguely suicidal thoughts.

 

Warning for discussions of suicide, and the off-screen suicide of a supporting character.

Warning for animal death. It's a hunting trip, after all.

Time to explore the darker sides of Umbar (and of Lord Herucalmo). Violence/torture warning applies, I guess.

The trip to the mines has unpleasant consequences. Help comes from an unexpected quarter.

Azruhâr finally meets the apprentices. Intercultural communications are harder than expected.

Warning for some violence and talk about human sacrifice. What are we getting ourselves into?

This chapter covers some prompts for the Middle-earth Olympics (athletics; boxing; wrestling - both literally and figuratively). That is accidental, but I'm going to take it.

Another difficult chapter.

The spring festival is there at last.

Warning for athletic injuries and unnamed background character death(s).

This is a grim one. Warning for (non-graphic) mentions of childbirth going pear-shaped. If that's a touchy subject for you, I recommend skipping this chapter.

Warning for dark-ish themes and background character death.

A (short) chapter of returns.

Azruhâr has to do some housekeeping.

Dârujan is in trouble.

Some letters home are in order.

Azruhâr's mind is quite occupied, thank you very much.

CW for non-graphic mentions of contagious sickness (bacterial gastroenteritis).

Lord Herucalmo comes to the morgue. Long and convoluted talking ensues. There even is an f-bomb. Oh dear.

Not a fun chapter despite the fun chapter number. My apologies.


Comments

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I’d love to see Azruphel punching the king… sorry, Azruhâr. ;)

Alcarmaitë is so petty… He keeps going out of his way to make Azruhâr miserable, he also showed how greedy he is by taking the pendant, I’d even say childish as well. He’s not helping his image at all.

Azruhâr is the winner of this round, and I’m positive the painter agrees with me!

It would have been very satisfying! Dangerous, but satisfying. I'm sure she has very hard little fists. ;)

He's quite childish, yeah. It could be pitiful that he takes such childish joy from hurting Azruhâr, like a schoolyard bully picking on the smaller kids because he knows they can't hurt him back, if it weren't such a deadly serious situation.
Well, not long now until other people start noticing how petty he is.

The painter doesn't dare to have an opinion! Just a regular day at work, nothing to see here, moving on. :/

Turns out Herucalmo has a human side after all! Who would've thought?

I do hope we'll find out more about all that in the next chapter. This one pretty much wrote itself in the wake of the last, but the next is (as yet) not quite clear. I hope I'll figure it out quickly. :D

Thank you for your comment!

I'm so happy to see this new chapter!! I had to leave chapter 29 on hold while I read this one... I briefly debated if I should be patient and only read it when I reached this point of the story again… Silly thing to even consider, I’m too curious for that!

Azruhâr is in the Numenórean version of high school, and surrounded by bullies no less! poor guy!

I really liked his and Herucalmo’s conversation. Saying he could eventually go back will give Azruhâr hope for the future. Herucalmo rose in my favor!

Pitty he can't tell Amraphel the good news... 

Looking forward to the embalming lessons and I hope the apprentices won’t give Azruhâr too much trouble.

You made my day with this update! It was great waking up to this surprise :) 

Aw, thank you! And hey, your comments have made my day for several days now, so it's only fair. ;)

He certainly feels as if someone has stuck a "Kick me!" note to his back. :/ Unfortunately, the Númenóreans at this point are not above petty bullying.

Herucalmo might get into trouble for letting that slip, but to Azruhâr, it makes such a huge difference. It will be really hard for him not to tell Amraphel.

Oh dear! I hope I'll get it written quickly! This chapter more or less wrote itself in the wake of the trip to the mines, but I am not yet sure where the next chapter is going to go...

And back to our rereading schedule :)

That was a really grand coronation! “a silver-plated chariot drawn by white horses” and afterwards silver make-up, talk about standing out. Well, he’s the king… he’s entailed to it. Tar-Telemmaitë made a point to impress. I enjoyed all the details you gave us!

Speaking against Telemmaitë would be the most idiotic mistake Azruhâr could do… good thing Eärendur helped him. The others just wanted him to take the fall… if things went wrong, he would be reminded as the one who started a civil war. Not to mention the certain execution if the king was crowned in the end.

It's the show of a lifetime! (Well, a lifetime for the nobles, and three lifetimes for the commoners...) It's got to be spectacular. And of course Telemmaitë has a lot to prove (above all, to himself). Glad you liked the details!

;It would have been very stupid, but at the same time, so tempting! Even if one of the other candidates had succeeded in the end, they still might have "removed" Azruhâr, since he would already have proven that won't stop at speaking out against kings. So yeah, it was definitely good that he kept his silence.

Atanacalmo never misses an opportunity to test Azruhâr… I’m not complaining though, it’s very interesting. He is, so far, the most cunnig character in the story… Azruhâr should be cautious but could also learn a thing or two.

Now, I’m wondering if Atanacalmo introduced Roitaheru to Azruhâr already thinking of a contingency plan, like planting the seeds to be used latter on if things go badly … or if, at the time, it was just a way to keep Azruhâr away from Eärendur for a longer time. Or maybe both… both is good too.

Azruhâr has shown during the coronation that he has a little bit of political understanding (and can keep his thoughts to himself when it counts), so he's ready for further testing as far as Atanacalmo is concerned. Azruhâr can definitely learn a lot from him, but unfortunately Atanacalmo's coaching style is "put them through stress and see how they manage" rather than "teach them first and test them later"... :/

I don't know if Atanacalmo already had a fixed plan in mind when he introduced Azruhâr to Roitaheru, but he certainly felt that it was an opportunity for the future that shouldn't be missed. Keeping Azruhâr out of Eärendur's "spoiling" influence was a bonus, of course! So yup, both is good!

Telemmaitë has been played by his uncle for a long time, but his obsession with Azruhâr makes it even more easy. The trouble is that he is actually quite insecure and not (as his father observed) the brightest, which is precisely why he gets so irrationally obsessed with an otherwise insignificant guy in the first place. Meanwhile, Atanacalmo has to be careful not to overdo it, since he's also starting to see value in Azruhâr beyond his use as a chess piece...

Eärendur isn't on Atanacalmo's level as far as political machinations, but that's mostly because he prefers straightforward methods to manipulation, not because he can't see through (some of) them. Their friendship is so important - I won't tire of hearing it! :)

Herucalmo showed that he’s already a nice little usurper by making sure the potential farmers were only grateful to him… well, he’s been learning how to be crafty from Atanacalmo and Arancalime since he was little.

The king once again elevates Azruhâr in importance, he meant it as a warning of course, but that’s not what most people probably saw… Or maybe the other nobles have realized that Alcarmaitë loves persecuting Azruhâr.

Author's Response:

He's certainly setting up his power base and making himself known as someone who understands the "little people", isn't he? At the same time, Azruhâr doesn't want to be too visible in the public eye, so although he might prefer to be given some credit, it's better for him to stay behind the scenes.

The nobles surely realised that Azruhâr is the king's favourite whipping boy, just as Alcarmaitë intended. The common folk, however, may interpret the situation very differently - to them, it certainly looks like he's an important figure, which is very much not what the king wants!

He's certainly setting up his power base and making himself known as someone who understands the "little people", isn't he? At the same time, Azruhâr doesn't want to be too visible in the public eye, so although he might prefer to be given some credit, it's better for him to stay behind the scenes.

The nobles surely realised that Azruhâr is the king's favourite whipping boy, just as Alcarmaitë intended. The common folk, however, may interpret the situation very differently - to them, it certainly looks like he's an important figure, which is very much not what the king wants!

Atanacalmo knew what would happen, right? The king probably discussed things with him… And Herucalmo was sent anyway so it wouldn’t be too suspicious.

I understand Eärendur only wanted to keep Azruhâr safe and that he was quite nervous/scared himself but the way he acted hurt Azruhâr’s pride (even if he claims not to have any!) and made him feel worthless because he couldn’t even help his friend.

He knew that the king wasn't going to attend, though he probably didn't tell Herucalmo so Herucalmo's surprise would be genuine. I don't think he knew about the planned arrest, because otherwise he'd have tried to prevent it. Atanacalmo has zero time to investigate imaginary crimes (and would laugh at the idea that goodly Eärendur would plot treason) - he's too busy eliminating real threats - and he probably would have seen how badly this could backfire. Since Azruhâr is unaware of it, we don't see it in the story, but Atanacalmo will later be furious about the king's (and Vanatirmo's) shenanigans, partly because it was really stupid and partly because he's absolutely shocked that the king made such a dramatic plan entirely without consulting him!

It did. Eärendur meant well, but he touched a very sore spot. :/

Hearing “Eru keep you” when you’re about to follow some guards for something you know is fishy but you’re trying to convince yourself otherwise must be terrifying.

Azruhâr is a very brave man! If only he could see it… And loyal! Burning the quill and the statement right in front of the king was marvelous! He paid for it but made his point.

I felt so bad for him in this chapter, he deserves so much better than this. And things aren’t over yet! :(

If Azruhâr hadn't realised that "preliminary questioning" was not a nice thing, that certainly brought the message across. :(

He doesn't realise how much he has grown since the beginning of the story, does he? And he doesn't realise that the people in the stories are not real (or if they're historical figures, that the stories and plays don't depict the suffering accurately), and that it's impossible to measure up to them.

I felt very bad writing this chapter and tried to scrap it more than once, I think. But that was the road the story wanted to take. :/

Unfortunately, they're not. Groups are like that way too often. :/

Roitaheru isn't worried about the teaching; he assumes that Azruhâr knows his craft and will find it easy to teach others in it. He's just sceptical whether Azruhâr will be able to keep his apprentices under control all by himself, since he isn't exactly an authoritative fellow and they're bound to be rebellious (after all, they're prisoners! bad people!). Things may be less clear-cut than that...

Thank you for reading!

Another very serious chapter! And with Azruhâr showing how strong he is again, but this time to the entire council; seeing him so broken made them give even more importance to his words. I bet none of them thought him capable of enduring torture and keeping his version of the facts. Great job presenting the trial, I was hooked!

No matter how resilient Azruhâr is, he’ll need time to deal with these recent events…This is a very important mark for his friendship with Eärendur as well.

I’d like to point out that Lord Ciryamacil represented the readers with his interferences in the trial!!

They did not expect it at all. They are probably fairly used to the threat of torture being sufficient without actually having to go through with it, or with people confessing fairly early. So while Azruhâr feels weak because he screamed, the councillors rather think "Wait, is he hero material?!"

Glad you "enjoyed" the trial! It was hard to keep it going smoothly.

He will definitely need time to heal in more than just body (and some scars will never fully heal).

Heh! Lord Ciryamacil has no time for beating about the bush. I hope he survives.

Like I said before it’ll take time for him to readjust… You portrayed his current mental state very accurately. It’s sad seeing my fave like this :(

Atanacalmo wants to plot with all fronts and two of them are outright conflicting… He somewhat cares for Azruhâr’s wellbeing, but his need to be a part of everything keeps him from speaking clearly.

I reserve the right to be petty (again) and enjoy Alcarmaitë's drop in reputation. It helps Azruhâr a little ;)

Concerning the house… When did it belong to Atanacalmo? Or was it his family’s?

It's hard to write him like this, too. Sometimes it bleeds over. But it wouldn't make sense to let him put it behind him too quickly, so we'll have to plough through... :/

Yes, the conflict between these two investments is now almost untenable. That's probably part of why he arranges for Azruhâr's stay in Umbar: so he has his hands and head free for his main plan. He doesn't actually want Azruhâr to come to harm, but he clearly can't help openly or he'd risk losing his power over the king. So it's definitely hard to keep his game going at this time.

Alcarmaitë certainly deserves it.
It helps Azruhâr in that people are no longer indifferent towards his fate, but at the same time, it makes him what he never wanted to be - an actual threat to the king...

It didn't belong to Atanacalmo (or his family), except in the abstract sense that all property in the capital ultimately belongs to the royal family. But the well-off family who used to live there in the past probably had a guildmaster or other important figure in their ranks, so Atanacalmo and Ancalimon must have visited the house on a couple of courtesy calls back when they were young princes in training. Perhaps they even had a friend there. And Atanacalmo may later have visited in his function as Lord of Arminalêth, too.

It’s a low blow to make him go to Umbar without his family… but the king wouldn’t have agreed if he thought Azruhâr would be happy to leave. It’s best for him to go and stay as far as possible from Telemmaitë.

This story is so good! I’m trying (and failing) to ration the chapters because I just realized that I’m progressing too quickly… I’ll catch up soon :0

The king has to think that Azruhâr is going to be unhappy for it to work. The old queen and Lord Atanacalmo probably managed to explain to him that he has to stop persecuting Azruhâr for his own good, and that sending him to Umbar is an excellent way of punishing him (exile!) that looks palatable to most people (a great opportunity!), but in order to really convince him, he's got to feel that Azruhâr is going to be miserable. :/

Thank you so much! I'll have to write faster, huh? (That probably won't work, so I'm not promising anything.) <3

I wonder what exactly are Atanacalmo’s plans for Azruhâr… All the testing, giving occasional advice and even arranging for him to be safely away from the king have to be for something… I’d like to say he came to like Azruhâr, but that wouldn’t be reason enough.

Vanilótë’s marriage seems quite awful… And Vanimeldë not being trained to rule in favor of a son that was never born is just sad… It makes sense with the future occurrences, after all she did leave matters of state for her husband to deal with.

I'm not allowed to tell you! ;) But you are right, he definitely has plans... if Azruhar proves worthy. To some extent, Azruhar is an interesting experiment. He does things and makes decisions that he should, based on all the prejudices against lowly paupers, be incapable of. So now Atanacalmo is curious just how far he can make it. Besides, he might still be useful.

To be fair, those are rumours, and they might not be true. But I wouldn't be surprised if they are. :/

It's sad - and unwise. But there we are. I didn't want Vanimelde to just be some empty-headed party girl, so I wanted to give her a (somewhat) better reason for keeping out of politics. Perhaps, also, her father's example have her a healthy distaste for politics. Right now, at any rate, she is repairing the reputation of the royal house simply because she is doing beautiful things and being pleasant and accessible...

Herucalmo is on babysit duty for sure! Atanacalmo took Azruhâr’s comment about the ship sinking/him throwing himself seriously.

When I first read the story, I thought Balakhil would start betraying Azruhâr and then would eventually change and become loyal… especially after he asked Azruhâr if he wasn’t afraid of wasting his kindness. In a way he tried to (by only saying things that would be more or less harmless), but then he wanted his old life back and also had to answer to the king. Poor man!

 

Yes, he realised that both these things might happen. But the King wouldn't arrange the sinking of a ship with his future son-in-law aboard... and Herucalmo (whether he likes it or not) can have an eye on our depressive embalmer, too.

At that time, he didn't want his old life back, but he couldn't get out of his agreement with the King. So he did start with the betrayal (getting into Azruhar's household to spy on him) and then changed and wanted to be loyal, but he was trapped. Poor man indeed! :(

Since Lord Roitaheru didn’t seem hostile towards Azruhâr when he was first introduced in the story, I wasn’t afraid of that changing now. I’m happy I was right about this!

The Umbar arc of the story will be very interesting, we can see a clear divide among umbarians and Numenóreans. Azruhâr will be a part of the “elite” for the first time, an enormous change for him.

Oh, Azruhâr, you precious cinnamon roll! Thinking the offer for warming his bed had a different meaning for the umbarians… He can be very naïve.

Azruhar's risk-assesment is not always accurate at this point (fortunately)!

Yes, it's a whole new experience for him, and it will be interesting to see how he adjusts to it.

Well, that is a service that you wouldn't expect from the staff at a grand house in Númenor, so Azruhar wouldn't have expected it here, either. How can you ask that of the servants? They can't really say no! He is naive in that way. :/

The council part showed again the disparity between umbarians and numenóreans, I’m happy Azuhâr spoke in favor of a fair judgment for all… He must relate a lot more with the umbarians since he’s seeing that the treatment they receive is almost like what he was used to.

Also, I’d like to see more Darîm! His interaction with Azruhâr could be very interesting.

Yes, the way the Umbarians are treated reminds him a lot of the paupers back at home. Details may differ, but on the whole, he can relate to them more easily than to the elite.

There is definitely going to be more Darîm, as Azruhar needs someone to help him choose his embalmers and to interpret between them!

 

Good thing Roitaheru is trying to help Azruhâr fit in better and making a point of including him in the group… Not that Azruhâr is very happy with that!

Well, he wants the númenóreans to appear a united and strong front to keep their reputation in the colonies intact… Another sign of imperialist behavior that you’ve been showing us since the beginning of this arc… Númenor really started to change!

Azruhâ’s stunt during the hunting showed them he is very strong and determined, it was impressive! And too dangerous… He is a magnet for troublesome situations!

Roitaheru is not fully aware of what happened in Azruhar's past, but he realises that he needs some pushing to understand his new role/ status. Indeed, there's a strong sense of 'us vs. them' - which is good for Azruhar as it erases (not entirely, but almost) the difference between him and the other Númenóreans, but hard on the Umbarians.

His sense of self-preservation isn't always the best - especially not now. But it impressed Roitaheru  (almost d probably Gohenor, too).

Herucalmo is keen on keeping Azruhâr where he can see and away from Laurilyo. At first, I actually thought he was jealous xD

I like Laurilyo and I hope he keeps showing up on the story, preferably as Azruhâr’s friend. He certainly needs more friends… Also, their outing was very good and gave us a chance to know more of Umbar.

The idea of Târik and Azruhâr’s father knowing each other is very interesting… and now I need more information on that!!

He might be jealous - I can't rule it out. Herucalmo's feelings on the whole matter are complicated.

Laurilyo does his best, in his way. He could certainly help Azruhar to relax a little and to thinks of other things than work or home!

I'm sure Târik will answer the letter... eventually! :D

This chapter was very dark indeed. From the slave mines and appalling work conditions to the punishment of the manager and then finally Azruhâr afraid of being left at the mines… wow you succeeded in giving me the chills.

Herucalmo thinking that would be a good learning experience just proves he has no idea how to deal with Azruhâr…

Also, I liked how Azruhâr managed to use the chisel while Herucalmo failed at it… It’s just as Amraphel said, the day-talers are unlearned but not unskilled!

This concludes my rereading saga! I loved it! Thank you so much for this amazing story, it was even more entertaining the second time and I’m already looking forward to future chapters. But don’t feel pressured… A great story like this is worth waiting! :)

I felt it was necessary to Show (or remind) Azruhar that life in Umbar isn't all hot baths and nightly bazaars, but I was shocked myself by how dark this ended up being.

Herucalmo meant no harm, but he has no ideal what it looks like for Azruhar. To him, the difference between the two was so obvious that he genuinely can't grasp that Azruhar wouldn't see it.

He has picked up a lot of useful skills along the road, hasn't he.

And wow, you did it! I'm in awe and very, very flattered that you took the time to comment on every single chapter during your re-read. Thank you so much for your thoughts and encouragement. I'm so happy to hear that the second read was as good (or even better) - I went into this without knowing where it would take me and haven't yet found the time for Edition the earlier parts, so I'm a bit worried they no longer fit together properly. So it's a huge relief if it worked for you - both times! Again, than you!

New chapter!!!! Hello, Lyra! How have you been??

Darîm and Azruhâr will work together quite well, maybe they’ll even become friends…

I can’t help but share in Azruhâr’s uneasiness… Going after a tribe you don’t have much information on with many rookie soldiers isn’t the best, I hope It’ll be as easy as Roitaheru is putting it.

I liked how Azruhâr understood that generosity was one of the major factors that changed his life and that he wanted to give the same chance to others as well. That’s my boy!!!

Thank you so much for this chapter! And I’m already eagerly waiting for the next one /

Hey thai! Lovely to see you again! I've been busy (hence the long wait) but managed to squeeze out a new chapter at last. How are you?

We will see! They have a few interests in common, but they're also from very different backgrounds.

Yeah, "what could possibly go wrong" is hardly a safe basis for a military campaign, is it? But of course we know that Herucalmo has to survive so he can later usurp Tar-Vanimelde's throne. ;)

I'm very happy I got him into a position where he could realise it. He believes a lot of things unthinkingly, but this is a first step towards understanding that his "betters" can be wrong. :D

Thank you for your lovely comment! I hope the next chapter won't take a whole month to write.

Whatever other disadavantages the desert tribe may have, in this campaign, they do know the territory better than even the veterans, let alone Herucalmo and the recruits. Not to mention the possibility of their having bought themselves allies as well as weapons with the mithril, maybe.

For Azruhar, navigating all the divisiveness of colonial attitudes isn't easy, clearly. But he is still sticking to his principles as best he can manage!

Thank you for the new chapter! I have a bad feeling about the upcoming "skirmish" -- but also wondering if or how Azruhar will be involved in it--will he save the future usurper and the recruits who tormented him. Would be great to view their comeuppance (maybe I'm getting ahead of myself).  I am also curious about the council members you introduced in this chapter--particularly the ambitious one who abstained in the vote and the native Umbarian--how he must be chafing under the "colonizers". 

I do hope I'll be able to keep Azruhâr out of it! On the one hand, it's tempting to send him into battle, but on the other hand, I'm not sure it would really work. We'll find out!

Both Darîm and Arandur will appear more often in the future, I'm sure. Darîm actually profits quite a bit from the colonizers, being the only representative of his people, but he might still chafe under the disrespect he's receiving! Can't be easy to be there as spokesman when none of the other councillors are particularly interested in listening...

Thank you for reading and commenting!

Thank you for another chapter!   Very interesting exposition of this Umbarian character--hope the Umbarians don't give Azruhar a hard time.  Living in a country that has been a colony of other countries, I do feel for the Umbarians--the Numenoreans are quite arrogant and definitely fail in cross-cultural sensitivity.  All the simmering tension around him--hope Azruhar is able to cope on his own. I'm also looking forward to responses to his letters from Numenor, particularly his wife, Master Tarik, and possibly--Lord Earendur?

 

 

Like most (or all?) colonists, the Númenóreans feel so superior that sensitivity feels unnecessary; after all, the other culture is inferior and doesn't need to be respected. (Except for some harmless customs - and anything that benefits the colonists themselves, of course!) Not an easy place for Azruhâr to be, in spite of his sudden rise in the social hierarchy. We'll see how he manages to adapt to that.
The letters should be coming soon, I hope!

As always, thank you for your comment!