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Preferred Name: Azh
Preferred Pronouns: they or he
Member since 16 November 2020.
About Me
I am an avid reader and writer of queer fantasy and a long-time Tolkien nerd who recently got into the Silmarillion. Now I seem to be writing an inordinate amount of fanfiction for it, featuring an awful lot of Maglor and Sauron, because I only like trash fires. Expect lots of explorations of gender and the occasional treatise on entropy or the philosophy of science (I sunlight as a physicist.)
Mertiya (AdmirableMonster) on AO3 and my personal website, admirablemonster on Discord (usually).
Fanworks by AdmirableMonster
I called it Fate that I should fail by AdmirableMonster
Nimruzimir, a natural philosopher recently out of his apprenticeship, hardly considers himself very important to anyone, least of all his colleagues. When his strange, prophetic fits bring him to the attention of the High Priest, however, he may find that his existence is less superfluous than he had originally thought.
Major Characters: Original Character(s), Unnamed Canon Character(s), Sauron |
Major Relationships: Unnamed Canon Character/Original Character, Original Character & Unnamed Canon Character, Sauron & Unnamed Canon Character |
Genres: Hurt/Comfort, Science Fiction | Challenges: |
Rating: Adult | Warnings: Expletive Language, In-Universe Intolerance, Mature Themes, Torture |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 10, 225 |
Posted on 9 June 2024 | Updated on 15 July 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Pennas Pengolodh by AdmirableMonster
- The majority of the Silmarillion was penned by a single Elf--an Elf who was so thoroughly written out as to appear only through the ways in which their perspective shaped the stories we see. This is their story, the historian's history, the Pennas Pengolodh.
Major Characters: Pengolodh, Salgant |
Major Relationships: Pengolodh & Salgant |
Genres: Drama | Challenges: |
Rating: | Warnings: |
Posted on 30 June 2024 | Updated on 1 July 2024 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
Those whom Doom will not release by AdmirableMonster
As the refugees regroup in the first aftermath of the Fall of Gondolin, one loremaster survives and tries to understand.
Major Characters: Pengolodh, Salgant |
Major Relationships: Pengolodh & Salgant |
Genres: Drama | Challenges: |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 1, 974 |
Posted on 1 July 2024 | Updated on 1 July 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
We are not lost in the mortal city by AdmirableMonster
Gil-galad and Círdan arrive at the Mouth of Sirion, too late.
Major Characters: Gil-galad, Pengolodh |
Major Relationships: Gil-galad & Pengolodh |
Genres: Drama | Challenges: |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Violence (Graphic) |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 1, 892 |
Posted on 30 June 2024 | Updated on 30 June 2024 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
Harp and Liar by AdmirableMonster
Stinging from his defeat in a musical competition at the Mereth Aderthad, Maglor unexpectedly makes friends with a deaf child.
Major Characters: Maglor, Pengolodh, Salgant |
Major Relationships: Pengolodh & Salgant, Maglor & Pengolodh |
Genres: Family | Challenges: |
Rating: General | Warnings: In-Universe Intolerance |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 2, 773 |
Posted on 28 June 2024 | Updated on 29 June 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
The Light and the Sea (Steampunk Númenor) by AdmirableMonster
Largely focused on Númenor, its fall, and the aftermath, as seen from the perspective of two Mannish scientists, bit players in some ways, but who nonetheless cast their shadows across the history of Middle Earth.
Major Characters: Original Character(s), Unnamed Canon Character(s) |
Major Relationships: Original Character/Original Character, Unnamed Canon Character/Original Character |
Genres: Science Fiction | Challenges: |
Rating: | Warnings: |
Posted on 9 June 2024 | Updated on 21 June 2024 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
Esse Nuquerna by AdmirableMonster
Nimruzimir's father interrupts him while he is reading the most recent novel in his favorite series.
Major Characters: Original Character(s), Other Fictional Character(s), Unnamed Canon Character(s) |
Major Relationships: |
Genres: Crossover, Science Fiction | Challenges: Crossroads of the Fallen King, Funky 70s, Tengwar |
Rating: General | Warnings: In-Universe Intolerance |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 961 |
Posted on 15 June 2024 | Updated on 15 June 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
The Strands that Bind by AdmirableMonster
Merry Brandybuck and Estella Bolger named their first child Boromir, after the hero of the War of the Ring. But the young hobbit's dearest secret is the name she wishes she had. One quiet day, after finding an unusual necklace in the cellar, she begins to see visions of an ancient past that whisper to her of ways she might heal a poisoned pond that has never recovered since the Scouring of the Shire. Can she unlock the secrets of a long-ago chemister and his lover and find the courage to stay true to herself along the way?
Major Characters: Original Character(s), Unnamed Canon Character(s) |
Major Relationships: Unnamed Canon Character/Original Character, Original Character & Original Character, Sauron & Original Character |
Genres: Science Fiction | Challenges: |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn |
Chapters: 11 | Word Count: 26, 554 |
Posted on 9 June 2024 | Updated on 10 June 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Oh where is the sun by AdmirableMonster
Lilóteo, the erstwhile Royal Physician of the Númenorean court, is waiting to be sacrificed when he receives a strange visitor.
Written for the prompt "And the Empire grows, the seeds of its glory, for every five tanks, plant a sentimental story" + manekimi's OC Death and Sauron or others
Major Characters: Original Character(s) |
Major Relationships: Original Character & Original Character |
Genres: Hurt/Comfort | Challenges: |
Rating: Adult | Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 1, 063 |
Posted on 9 June 2024 | Updated on 9 June 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
History abandons us by AdmirableMonster
During his incarceration in Roderick Burgess' basement, Dream receives a strange, ancient visitor.
Major Characters: Other Fictional Character(s), Lórien, Thranduil |
Major Relationships: Lórien & Thranduil |
Genres: Crossover | Challenges: Crossroads of the Fallen King |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Violence (Mild) |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 980 |
Posted on 18 May 2024 | Updated on 18 May 2024 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Words of Wisdom by AdmirableMonster
One or more drabbles about Pengolodh and his babysitter Salgant.
Major Characters: Pengolodh, Salgant |
Major Relationships: Pengolodh & Salgant |
Genres: Ficlet | Challenges: Tengwar |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn |
Chapters: 4 | Word Count: 418 |
Posted on 3 May 2024 | Updated on 5 May 2024 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
Les Mots de Sagesse by AdmirableMonster
Plusieurs petites histoires qui parle de Pengolodh et Salgant pendant des moments differents.
Major Characters: Pengolodh, Salgant |
Major Relationships: Pengolodh & Salgant |
Genres: Ficlet | Challenges: Tengwar |
Rating: General | Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn |
Chapters: 3 | Word Count: 334 |
Posted on 14 April 2024 | Updated on 5 May 2024 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
Blood Ties by AdmirableMonster
A close friend of Lómion's has gone missing, and a dark creature stalks the forests of his home. When he is summoned by Nan Elmoth itself, Lómion will have to draw upon all the powers he possesses to get himself and his friend home again.
Major Characters: Original Character(s), Anguirel, Maeglin |
Major Relationships: Anguirel & Maeglin, Maeglin & Original Character |
Genres: Horror | Challenges: |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings, Violence (Graphic) |
Posted on 27 December 2023 | Updated on 27 December 2023 |
This fanwork is complete. |
The Mercy of the Fallen by AdmirableMonster
Rather than killing him, Dior curses Celegorm with his dying breath. Someone that Celegorm once helped helps him a little in turn.
Major Characters: Original Nonbinary Character(s), Celegorm |
Major Relationships: Celegorm & Original Character |
Genres: Alternate Universe, Drama | Challenges: Understory |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Character Death, In-Universe Racism/Ethnocentrism, Violence (Moderate) |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 919 |
Posted on 24 November 2023 | Updated on 24 November 2023 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Dirty Deeds by AdmirableMonster
A young Númenorean has a close encounter with a deity of his mother's people.
Major Characters: Original Male Character(s), Makar, Meássë |
Major Relationships: Meássë & Original Character |
Genres: Horror, Suspense | Challenges: Turgon's Rock Opera |
Rating: Adult | Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 1, 799 |
Posted on 14 September 2023 | Updated on 15 September 2023 |
This fanwork is complete. |
The Fates of Man by AdmirableMonster
Two natural philosophers struggle to warn the Faithful that the end of Númenor is approaching. But can sworn enemies find a way forward in the midst of the final tumult?
Major Characters: Original Male Character(s) |
Major Relationships: Original Character/Original Character, Original Character & Original Character |
Genres: Adventure, Horror, Hurt/Comfort | Challenges: Rejects |
Rating: Teens | Warnings: Creator Chooses Not to Warn, In-Universe Intolerance, In-Universe Racism/Ethnocentrism |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 6, 451 |
Posted on 16 April 2023 | Updated on 16 April 2023 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Yávië by AdmirableMonster
The queen of Númenor reflects on her past and future with a strange companion.
Major Characters: Sauron, Tar-Míriel |
Major Relationships: Sauron & Tar-Míriel |
Genres: Drama | Challenges: Manwë's Mailbag |
Rating: Adult | Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 1, 298 |
Posted on 3 December 2022 | Updated on 3 December 2022 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Bearer of Chiaroscuro by AdmirableMonster
Mairon flees Angband to warn his lovers in Gondolin of the impending fall of the city.
Written for the 2022 Matryoshka Challenge (Difficult setting! :B)
Major Characters: Unnamed Female Canon Character(s), Aredhel, Celebrimbor, Curufin, Gothmog, Sauron |
Major Relationships: Celebrimbor/Maeglin/Sauron |
Genres: Alternate Universe, Drama, Family | Challenges: X Marks the Spot |
Rating: Adult | Warnings: Character Death, Check Notes for Warnings, Domestic and Partner Violence |
Chapters: 8 | Word Count: 4, 852 |
Posted on 15 October 2022 | Updated on 15 October 2022 |
This fanwork is complete. |
Quilt of Growth by AdmirableMonster
Little snapshots of different worlds, for the restoration and rebuilding challenge. Written during Instadrabbling in August 2022.
Major Characters: Original Character(s), Celebrimbor, Halbarad, Lobelia Sackville-Baggins, Maedhros, Maglor, Sauron |
Major Relationships: |
Genres: Ficlet | Challenges: Restoration and Rebuilding |
Rating: General | Warnings: |
Chapters: 4 | Word Count: 472 |
Posted on 20 August 2022 | Updated on 20 August 2022 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
A System of Messages by AdmirableMonster
A wandering storyteller meets with a group of cowboys and tells his family's history around a fire; the mysterious Center (of the system of messages, perhaps) features prominently.
For the "Western" prompt of the Also Appearing challenge with a slight admixture of something akin to "uranium mine" or perhaps "pyramids"
Major Characters: Halbarad, Maglor |
Major Relationships: Maglor/Halbarad |
Genres: Alternate Universe | Challenges: Also Appearing |
Rating: Creator Chooses Not to Rate | Warnings: Check Notes for Warnings |
Chapters: 1 | Word Count: 1, 824 |
Posted on 16 June 2022 | Updated on 17 June 2022 |
This fanwork is a work in progress. |
AdmirableMonster's Gallery
Cover page for my Steampunk Númenor series, The Light and the Sea. Nimruzimir gazes out at Númenor from Andúnië.
Major Characters: Unnamed Canon Character(s)Major Relationships: No major relationships listed
Challenge: No challenge listed
Rating: General
Warnings: No warnings listed | | |